September 2025
September 5th
Woke up 5:30 again, brushed my teeth, put on new clothes and immediately drove off to Starbucks to get a venti coffee. Arrived to work forty-five minutes early. That gave me the peaceful environment needed to finally read your work that you wrote in college without any distractions. I have the hardest time reading, any kind of noise or movement in my peripheral vision disrupts my attention and will sometimes have to re-read something from the beginning of the chapter to make it all make sense again.
But I read it all before the next co-worker arrived. The character Jules reminded a little of myself. His little act of rebellion changing the M to W.
The story reminded me very much of Harlan Ellison’s shorts story I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream.
Random but this is one of the best Pika photographers I’ve seen in a while: www.deirdredenaliphotography.com
Now that your story reminded me of Harlan Ellison, I opened up my kindle on the laptop and started reading one of his stories during my break Chatting with Annubis.
“And the great god laughed with a terrible thin laugh that brought to mind paper cuts and the slicing of eyeballs.”
September 4th
During a small pocket of freetime during work, I scrolled down to a random post with a line of text that had me laughing but it was poetic and true at the same time:
A glowstick has to break before it glows.
Woke up 5:30 and drove to the local Starbucks for some coffee and sat in the car thinking a little bit about my future game plan and making active instead of passive moves.
Earlier today I found this article about our relationship with technology and how we are being used by it rather than using it for productivity. There’s so many sites to visit and explore so much information but we limit it down to only several apps: facebook, instagram, tiktok, youtube, amazon just to name a few. The analogy that the article made was that these sites are like those street peddlers that try to scam you something and try to sell you a service or cheap souvenir items.
September 3rd
It’s been a while writing here. Haven’t been posting too much like I used to on Flickr. I’m kind of in a low-power creative mode but will be out and about very soon I can promise you that!
Something kind of happened in my life that I really wasn’t expecting to happen this soon or even at all. It wasn’t, at least, I don’t think, it was something that I was actively looking for right now in my life. But I guess one thing led to another and it just naturally led to this.
For the first time in a long time, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. It feels too good to be true that it’s making me skeptical that this is all just a dream and, in a few moments, I’ll wake up in the car napping way past my lunchbreak with three missed calls and several messages from my co-worker asking where I’m at.
My life is still not great great but this person is helping me get out of my years of laziness and improving myself. I want to do my best so that she knows that she can depend on me. So it’s making me think about what exactly do I want to do in life, what exactly am I passionate about that can allow me to wake up on my own time, make a living out of it and people can benefit from what I provide.
I’m trying to make these incremental steps which will set me up for a brand-new start in 2026.
Big changes are happening and still trying to learn how to bring it in harmony with my lifestyle and art.
If you’re reading this, dear, I’m so thankful to have you in my life.
