11/4/25

It’s funny how you feel that you found yourself a good routine. You’re sleeping and waking up early. Writing out a to-do list for the day and journaling. And suddenly you don’t know exactly when it happens but you go completely off track. You are sleeping at 1am and rushing out of bed to get to work. You forget to journal, you eat junk food and start spending like you have infinite money.

That’s kind of what’s going on in my life right now. Just today I just snapped out of my trance and realized how much I’ve slacked off in my daily routine. I have empty bags from dunkin’ donuts in my car, doomscrolling for several hours, buying things I don’t really really need on Amazon.com.

Now I’m trying to get back on the tracks again and slowly go through the routine I was doing two months ago.

If you feel like you have gone off track as well. Let’s restart together.

You know what ticks me off a little bit. There’s no one out there having a consistent blog. I remember a couple of months ago that J. Cole created his own blog that was meant to be kept away from his mainstream followers. But he only did 4-5 posts and he never did any more.

I go to other people’s website and they have a blog tab and they’ve done the same thing. They created a couple of blog posts and just give up on it.

I can kind of see why. Cause when you have a blog on your website, it doesn’t show a like or views count like social media does. So people do their blogs on facebook, x and substack cause those sites are connected to the people you follow and you get more direct feedback. It’s both good and bad. Good because you can see what you write about that’s resonating with your readers but then the bad part is that you are just attached to the numbers and you end up writing viral content knowing that it’ll boost your numbers cause in this age, large view count, followers, and engagment make people think you’re a better writer or artist than someone with less than one hundred followers on their social media or mailing list.

so this blog that i’m writing I want it to be what I’ve wanted in someone’s blog: someone who’s constantly writing out content in the old-internet fashion where there’s no numbers attached to my writing and it’s only for the crazy fanitical fans that are willing to follow my website links that I’ve attacked to all of my flickr posts and create a squarespace account in order to access this blog.

I want this to blog to be messy and experimental like a digital playground. Many posts, it started somewhere but many times it’s left unfinished and probably will be left unfinished. Maybe caused my interest have changed and maybe it’s because it really isn’t what I was really really interested in talking about or else I would have spent more time on it until completion.

If you’re reading this thank you so much.

Things I need to do to get back into my routine:

1. Journal everyday

2. Do my Rosetta Stone

3. Write out my schedule

4. Read two books at a time

5. Write something down to my partner

6. Get sunlight

7. Meditate & Fast

8. Work on my side business to get out of my 9-to-5 grind.

Finally after a several months of reading it on and off, I’m finally almost done with A Little Life. I don’t know what happened. The the first quarter of the book was really good but once I got towards the middle I really slowed down and while I was in the car I was thinking about why I did that and thought maybe it’s because when you’re in the middle of a thick book like that (it’s an 800+ page book) you can’t see that starting line nor the finish line and it doesn’t feel rewarding at all in that area. It’s hard to read cause sometimes you do wish you had people on the sidelines cheering you on. i wish that I had some kind of support.