Getting Out of the Cycle
Recently I’ve been getting back home from work around 4pm, I’ll pick up some groceries or a wrap + soda combo at WAWA, do some chores in my room with youtube playing in the background and when you check your watch it’s already 8pm.
Then, it’s time to get ready to go to sleep, wake up at 5am, work with people you’re not deeply connected with and you come back home drained from fake smiling all day. And you repeat that cycle.
When you’re in an hourly job in an environment that doesn’t match your way of working, it leaves you drained. You only have enough energy to hit the skip ad button on youtube. Enough energy to swipe your thumb up to see the next reel when lying down on your side.
I’m not in love with the job that I currently do. I don’t even “kind of” like it. It’s just a job just to get by to pay monthly bills, watch a movie at the AMC, buy some new clothes or go on a weekend day trip. But it’s a kind of job that’s not going to create wealth or generate passive income. It’s the kind of living that will barely keep your head above water financially and you constantly have to keep budgeting.
Every day at work the same thought(s) keep entering my head:
Why are you still here?
You’re better than this, do your own thing.
Go independent
Why’re you ok with getting paid in scraps
It’s just like having an addiction problem. You know it’s unhealthy if you keep going on with this kind of lifestyle. The hardest part is breaking out of that cycle. It’s hard because it’s leaving from a source (even if it’s from an unhealthy source) that’s providing you money. It’s hard because now it’s asking yourself to leave what you’re used to and going into the unknown to look for a new source of income and a new way of living.
It’s brought me back to the idea that I need to start investing in myself and my personal brand. Blogging and posting more content on all the platforms that I’m on. Sharing what I’m truly interested in and doing work that I really want to do. It’s getting back into street photography again and trippling down on it. It’s, instead of applying for multiple jobs on Indeed.com, writing fake cover letters and exaggerating your work experience on a resume, it’s going fully independent, being confident in yourself and generating your own income and not depending on a company to live the life that you truly want to live.
I’m working for myself and not for a company. It’s trying to find what you’re worth and putting a price on it.
So I’m going to try and write one blog post a day. Even if it’s just one short paragraph, I will write it down with a photo or two and hit publish.